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July 25, 2014 — Leave a comment

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So we haven’t ventured to the beach all that much this summer…

#1 It’s so hot unless you go in the evening but Juliet goes to sleep around 7
#2 *see previous post this week*
#3 All the baby wants to do is eat the sand and ends up rubbing it all over her face

The other day Amelia told us she had such a boring day, so I suggested we take a little evening trip to the beach.  Little did my husband know that I had an ulterior motive of taking some 10 month pictures of sweet Juliet and the best big sister ever.

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One of my Facebook friends recently shared about her journey with a melanoma found on her face and the reconstructive surgeries she went through in the 7 months following.  She urged everyone to get a skin check and it got me thinking since I had never had one.  I called a dermatologist and set up an appointment.  Leading up to it of course I developed some serious anxiety… I wouldn’t say I’m a sun worshipper but I definitely enjoy being tan and used to frequent tanning beds back in the day (remember unlimited month plans? Yeah I did those).

So I went in, endured a lecture about the fact that my skin was slightly tanned and ended up needing a biopsy of a mole on my back.  The worst part was they told me, “The only reason we’ll call you is if everything is fine, if not then you’ll need to come in for your appointment in 2 weeks.”  To me that meant, “If we don’t call you, you have cancer.”  Two weeks went by, no phone call, I went in to the appointment almost shaking and was told my mole was “moderately dysplastic,” which wasn’t good but it was better than hearing “cancer!”  I had to have a more extensive excision with a few stitches in the lower layer and 6 outer stitches.  Let’s just say I’m glad I did not google this procedure before the appointment because it is not cute (so I’ll spare you photos of the wound).

My Dad also went for a screening after seeing that I did (it has been a few years since his last one).  They biopsied a site as well and his came back as a very very early (like only 0.27mm deep) melanoma.  He is having surgery today to remove the area surrounding and has to have a skin scan every 3 months.  I am SO THANKFUL it was found early since melanoma found in the beginning stages is curable.

Since all of this happened, I do find myself staying indoors a little more than I usually do in the summers and slathering on tons of SPF50 along with the girls.  I feel sort of ashamed that I “enjoyed” the sun for so long and soaked up so many harmful rays when I knew I shouldn’t.  So, the moral of the story is, “Wear sunscreen, get annual mole screenings and let everyone know they should do it too, it could save a life!”

 

“Are you going to have a 3rd baby?”

This question really doesn’t bother me… but the fact that I don’t know the answer does.  I feel like I seriously contemplate this topic every single day, almost to the point that it annoys me.  Are we going to have another baby?  The answer is “We don’t know yet…”

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When Juliet was first born, I knew I didn’t want her to be my last baby.  I was in love with having her, cuddling her, watching her, and just having her sweetness in our house.  It’s amazing having a newborn, the lack of sleep doesn’t affect me terribly and the happy/sappy emotions are like non other.  After Amelia’s birth my first thoughts were, “I don’t want to do that for a long time,” but after Juliet’s I distinctly remember thinking, “That wasn’t so bad, I could do that again.”  I’m not going to lie, there are definitely some trying moments with a small baby in the house, but it is nothing compared to the love and pride you feel for your children.

I admit as she gets older it gets easier and sometimes the thought “I can do without going through that again,” goes through my mind.  But can I do without those first smiles and seeing how sweet the girls are together?  I can do without nursing for an entire year and not fitting in my pants for months after being pregnant, but can I do without feeling the sweetness of our new baby sleeping soundly on my chest?  I can do without the intense worry I feel when leaving my babies for work but can I do without an amazing and unique connection to another child?  When I think about it logistically, obviously two children would be easier.  But when I think about how much love a child fills the world with, it feels impossible to NOT want another.

It seems like most of my friends are so sure about the number of kids they want.  After their 2nd, several friends matter-of-factly stated, “We’re done!”  Does the fact that we don’t feel that way mean we’re meant to expand our brood?  I’m trying my best to really enjoy our family as it is now and be thankful that having another baby is even a physical possibility for our family.  I know we’ll cross that bridge in another year or so, but the uncertainty sometimes gets to me.  Are we going to have a 3rd baby?  Maybe we’ll go with, “If we’re lucky…”

How did you decide how many children would be right for your family?  Or was it somehow decided for you by a higher power? : )

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